Man do I have a lot I am my dads oldest and probley the bigest fuck up my old man and I didn't always see eye to eye but some of the things he said he was a wise man and my only true real friend I would trade every thing just to be abele to say a few words are familey isint like a lot of others we don't show emotions well and if you had a chance to see one you were lucky I grew up hard with my dad being a sole parent for a long Time till Neva came along I wasent a special kid or a joy in my old mans eyes but some times I could tell he loved me witch was a word very seldom used in the house now iam not saying he was a bad father but quite the opposite he made me into a man and dad if you can here me iam sorry I didn't push you to take care of your self and I love you I love you and I should have been there I do remember every thing you tought me and I try to use them in every day life I know I haven't written